[Jun at least has enough self-awareness to snort at that notion.]
Ha... Unfortunately, I've caused a lot of trouble. I'll tell you some of the stories someday. One involved a T-rex, and there was a whole stint I had where I'd sneak into Spirit Realms by myself.
[he was. a rebellious youth. But he knows this isn't the time for wild tales of jun's youth. That could be another time, when Luke wasn't going through it.]
... Your survival instinct kicked in, Luke. And the instinct wasn't wrong. Had you not acted, he likely would've killed you. After all... the Hunter was what landed me in the hospital. And if I didn't have my regeneration power... I wouldn't have made it.
[He bites his lip a little]
I get it though. No matter how much you rationalize it... the guilt doesn't go away. You go over the moment over and over in your head... wishing you had done things differently, even if you don't know how.
Believe me, the months of community service that came after wasn't cool.
[He got in so much trouble for that one okay. So much.
There's a pause as a soft intake of breath when Luke says that. That he wishes he could go back. Like he wishes he could forget. His mind can't help but flashback to the numerous conversations he had when Luke showed up. The concerns he had about Luke remembering, about taking part of his life.... that maybe it'd be better if he stayed away, and didn't remember.
I told you all so, he thinks to himself, allowing himself to have a bubbling moment of annoyance towards the rest of the family... before he lets it go. Right. Those feelings wouldn't be much help right.
So... he takes a breath.]
I wish that could happen for you too, or that the world was more fair... unfortunately, it doesn't work that way.
The important thing is... he attacked first, you didn't. You were just trying to survive. And... it's a good thing you did remain alive. A lot of people would've been really sad if you had died.
[And he does! For all his self-loathing, Luke understands that he's loved in this life.]
My parents don't even know what's going on, and they'd be pretty crushed. Plus you guys, and my siblings too. I'm pretty sure even Zelos would miss me, even though I kinda got him hit by a bus.
[It wasn't on purpose, at least.]
But, I dunno. Like, what if it had been a real guy? What makes me more important than him? I don't wanna die or anything, but he'd probably have a family, too, right?
[Zelos got hit by a.... you know what, he's not going to worry about that right now. There's enough things to unpack]
See? There's a lot of people who'd be upset. So it's a good thing you lived.
[And it's important to hold onto that]
Maybe he does... but ultimately, he choose to attack you first. You shouldn't seek to kill if you aren't ready to be killed in turn. That's why it's important when you're fighting humans and similar beings, to only act in either self-defense, or in the defense of others.
My brother's kind of a dick, too, though. He went after you guys in the Fortress just because he thought you stole my wallet! You guys wouldn't do something like that.
Oh, well. That's not so bad then. [Ash is a pretty good kid when he's not sitting on Luke, so... sure! He'll take it]
Ha... oh yeah, I nearly forgot about that. [he could fess up that he did actually steal his wallet, but... nah. He won't] Did you ever get your wallet back? I never heard the conclusion to that saga.
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Date: 2025-08-14 09:16 pm (UTC)Ha... Unfortunately, I've caused a lot of trouble. I'll tell you some of the stories someday. One involved a T-rex, and there was a whole stint I had where I'd sneak into Spirit Realms by myself.
[he was. a rebellious youth. But he knows this isn't the time for wild tales of jun's youth. That could be another time, when Luke wasn't going through it.]
... Your survival instinct kicked in, Luke. And the instinct wasn't wrong. Had you not acted, he likely would've killed you. After all... the Hunter was what landed me in the hospital. And if I didn't have my regeneration power... I wouldn't have made it.
[He bites his lip a little]
I get it though. No matter how much you rationalize it... the guilt doesn't go away. You go over the moment over and over in your head... wishing you had done things differently, even if you don't know how.
It's ... a terrible feeling.
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Date: 2025-08-14 09:27 pm (UTC)[BY WHAT METRIC]
[anyway]
Yeah, and I’m really glad I’m alive right now. But it’s, I dunno, it just isn’t fair, I guess. Why does someone else have to die for me to stay alive?
[And why are the words ‘Tower of Rem’ echoing in his head?]
I just—-I wish I could go back to before all this crazy stuff, y’know? Like I could just be a college student.
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Date: 2025-08-14 10:01 pm (UTC)[He got in so much trouble for that one okay. So much.
There's a pause as a soft intake of breath when Luke says that. That he wishes he could go back. Like he wishes he could forget. His mind can't help but flashback to the numerous conversations he had when Luke showed up. The concerns he had about Luke remembering, about taking part of his life.... that maybe it'd be better if he stayed away, and didn't remember.
I told you all so, he thinks to himself, allowing himself to have a bubbling moment of annoyance towards the rest of the family... before he lets it go. Right. Those feelings wouldn't be much help right.
So... he takes a breath.]
I wish that could happen for you too, or that the world was more fair... unfortunately, it doesn't work that way.
The important thing is... he attacked first, you didn't. You were just trying to survive. And... it's a good thing you did remain alive. A lot of people would've been really sad if you had died.
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Date: 2025-08-31 02:22 am (UTC)[And he does! For all his self-loathing, Luke understands that he's loved in this life.]
My parents don't even know what's going on, and they'd be pretty crushed. Plus you guys, and my siblings too. I'm pretty sure even Zelos would miss me, even though I kinda got him hit by a bus.
[It wasn't on purpose, at least.]
But, I dunno. Like, what if it had been a real guy? What makes me more important than him? I don't wanna die or anything, but he'd probably have a family, too, right?
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Date: 2025-08-31 02:32 am (UTC)See? There's a lot of people who'd be upset. So it's a good thing you lived.
[And it's important to hold onto that]
Maybe he does... but ultimately, he choose to attack you first. You shouldn't seek to kill if you aren't ready to be killed in turn. That's why it's important when you're fighting humans and similar beings, to only act in either self-defense, or in the defense of others.
Does that make sense?
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Date: 2025-08-31 02:49 am (UTC)[Well, technically it did explode, but not until it hit the video store. And definitely not when it hit Zelos!]
I guess. I mean, I don't really like it, but if I have to--that's a good way to be.
[And then, after a beat:]
You're actually really nice, huh?
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Date: 2025-08-31 02:55 am (UTC).... Bruh.]
Did you think I wasn't... ?
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Date: 2025-08-31 02:57 am (UTC)[i think you know it does not]
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Date: 2025-08-31 02:59 am (UTC)Erm... which Ash are we talking about here? The redhair Ash with a "c" or the tall Ash with no "C"?
[BECAUSE THERE'S A DIFFERENCE. WHERE DOES HE FALL ON THE ASSHOLE ASH SCALE]
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Date: 2025-08-31 03:03 am (UTC)[Luke waits a bit.]
My brother's kind of a dick, too, though. He went after you guys in the Fortress just because he thought you stole my wallet! You guys wouldn't do something like that.
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Date: 2025-08-31 03:14 am (UTC)Ha... oh yeah, I nearly forgot about that. [he could fess up that he did actually steal his wallet, but... nah. He won't] Did you ever get your wallet back? I never heard the conclusion to that saga.